Spring has come to our corner of the world, and the weather is warming up. I am starting to perk up more; it's helping that I have almost completely cut out taking the Simply Sleep at night because I now feel more alert during the day and I like that. When Dr. Levy told me I had to stop the Simply Sleep before he'd consider reducing the Risperdol I was initially upset but now I fully understand his reasoning. He wants to see how truly drugged out I am--which I can tell you I am without a doubt. It's just a little less drugged but drugged nonetheless.
With Spring comes the expected Spring cleaning, something I struggle mightily with. I hope my husband can find me some help. I'm just too overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done. I've checked with other bipolars and they have this problem too. I can keep the kitchen clean, for the most part, but that's it. Yes, I definitely need a cleaning service to help.
I'm going to cling to Spring because I don't like what follows--summer with temperatures in the 90s. It's horrible for me, I don't do well in the heat, a side effect of my meds. I don't like to be outside at all, and cooking in the kitchen gets unpleasant. No, let's not think about summer! Let's enjoy Spring while it's here.
All in all I am doing okay. Wonder what my purpose is, and other mid-life crisis stuff but for the most part I'm just taking it One Day At A Time. I'm blessed that I don't have to work, no stress to deal with and make me sick. Things could be much, much worse. Right now all I want is my Risperdol reduced but I must be patient. I'll try.
