Enough Is Enough

 Had yet another bad morning, waking up at 5:00 am, fretting over whether to continue to try and suffer through taking the thyroid med the new way and having anxiety and nervousness; or just to go back to my old way of taking all my morning meds together. Finally said enough is enough, got out of bed and came downstairs and swallowed my morning meds all at once. It’s how my mom takes her levo, it’s how my friend Katie’s mom takes her levo (after going through the same hell I have been!).

It really ties me up in knots to not be following Dr. Larrimer’s instructions to take the levo alone, wait 30 minutes, then take the rest of my morning meds. But I’ve been trying to do this new way and I’m a mess. Mom and Michael have cut me off from discussing my angst. I cannot be out here on my own without family support! 

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Sent messages to Dr. Levy and Dr. Schumacher looking for green light to bundle my meds together and they said AOK! So now it’s Day 2 of swallowing all my meds together and so far I’m feeling good. I’m a little bit uncomfortable but I’m waiting for morning gabapentin to kick in. I’ll never get rid of all anxiety, gotta accept some.

Going to go to my exercise class at the pool this morning, that always feels good. Have a busy week with family gathering, lunch date, and hockey game. Sun is out but it’s still cool, it’s March in Ohio. Morning phone calls with mom are changing; she doesn’t want to discuss anxiety anymore. So I have to adapt, it’s hard but I don’t want to be a burden.

I’ll keep plugging along, I always do. Good day to be sane and sober. I’ll take that!