Prompt: What are some good, positive aspects of our alcoholic behaviors?
Finding the Good in the Bad
It all starts with, “My name is Melissa, and I’m an alcoholic.” Recognizing and confronting my alcoholism and addiction tendencies allows me to pursue a recovery program emphasizing an healthier way of living. I am living, not on the steps of death’s door. It took my addiction’s rock bottom to get me here. I have earned my seat in the AA meeting. I experience great benefit from the AA fellowship around me. Thank goodness I made it here!
One of my worst alcoholic behaviors is my penchant for lying. But AA constantly teaches me the importance of honesty in my life and in my interactions with others. Subsequently I’m now very aware when I lie, I don’t feel right about it, and I strive to tell the truth when I can. I can say I certainly don’t lie like I used to when I was using substances. So I’ve made improvements in my life.
My alcoholic desire to numb myself has been replaced by my doing soothing, self care activities like meditation, getting a massage, and twice a week going to a warm water exercise class. I’ve been successfully able to experience things that feel good but aren’t harmful to me like booze and weed are.
My alcoholic desire to be the center of attention and run the show has been almost completely tempered in sobriety; it now only comes out for the most part in Melissa’s Kitchen at night. When I’m creating my gourmet eats I run a tight ship, and set very high standards for myself. I don’t really allow my husband to get involved and assist; I like to be in charge of what we eat. Nine times out of ten the end product is outstanding. There’s a reason why we don’t eat out that often.
Perhaps the worst alcoholic behavior I have is my indulgence of self-centered fear, worry and anxiety. In the past, I tried to medicate this anxiety with alcohol and weed.
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