Morning Gripes

 So my husband is up early and active, whereas I come downstairs and spend hours in my recliner drinking coffee and waking up. I like it peaceful and quiet in the morning but lately it hasn’t been that way. Subsequently I’m feeling nervous about Michael’s running around, when I honestly should just let him go. I am relieved he is back to sleeping normally again.

 I’m really getting resentful of this med hangover I feel in the morning. But I’m making it worse by adding some OTC sleeping med to my evening pill dose; that makes you feel drowsy the next day. I tried last night not having the Simply Sleep but I tossed and turned in bed. I finally gave up and came downstairs and took 1/2 pill of the sleeping med. I fell asleep about 45 minutes later.

This is getting really tedious and boring complaining about my meds, side effects, anxiety, just all of it. I’ve got to smash through this situation and start living life. I’m glad I’m writing things out before calling mom and dumping all my complaints on her. 

It’s Monday morning, I could be going to the gym but I’m holding off. I need to think of some tasks I can do today. The bathroom needs to be cleaned, there are some kitchen drawers that need to be organized. I have to shower. Remember set expectations low and work within a certain time frame.

Ok, a few hours have passed and I’m feeling much better. I’m tempted to write Dr. Levy a long note, outlining all my complaints with my meds. Basically, I want more energy and motivation; isn’t this why I went through the hell with the levothyroxine tweaks? Well, it didn’t work, at least I don’t think so. 

Michael is pushing me to go on a spontaneous vacation but no, there’s no way in hell I’ve got the stamina for that!

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Showered, went for a walk. I felt wiggy walking and I think the new problem is I’m getting my Gabapentin now from a new pharmacy and they use a different manufacturer? Thought I had everything finally straightened out, then I started new Gabapentin supply yesterday and today I feel wiggy. Damn it.

I’m back to my chair, will I ever be free? Trying to explain to Michael that I feel like shit but I don’t think he gets it. I think I should call the pharmacy to get clarification if this new Gabapentin could be making me feel unwell. I guess I just want to know when I’m going to be feeling better again. Tired of this hell!