This Beat Goes On

So things are continuing with my husband up early with lots of energy and me sleeping 11 hours and feeling groggy in the morning. It’s difficult having the TV blaring news as I’m trying to wake up; hopefully this is temporary, or if it isn’t I may have to return to the bedroom to get away from it. 

I’m sensitive to news, heck, the television in general. It comes from the repeated manic psychosis I’ve experienced. Waking up in the morning and coming down to a blaring TV set is just not desirable, so someone needs to put in headphones. I’m sure a compromise can be reached.

I need to lean into acceptance that my husband and I are on very different sleep schedules right now, and we have different energy levels. I know that will cause problems if we try to do something like travel, go on a vacation (something he wants to spontaneously do). I’m not responding when he mentions going on a trip, or something like moving out of Ohio. I just don’t feel up to that. 

I worry that he might start pressing me to do something. He envisions packing up the dog in a rental SUV and driving out West with no reservations or itinerary planned. I refuse to do that, and I’m just hoping he’s going through some kind of temporary run away fantasy. Exposure to stressful financial TV news can make you want to run, so I think I just ride things out and stay quiet.

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Ok, it’s later in the early afternoon, I’m back from my water exercise class, which was wonderful! I got some needed movement and socialized with friends. I feel really good, not like yesterday where I felt wiggy. I managed to go to Target on the way home and pick up some new bathmats and a dish drying rack. I’m glad I got some errands done. 

Michael went skating, I hope he burned off some energy and frustration. I know he must be tired because he didn’t get as much sleep last night. Right now I’ve got the house to myself and it’s peaceful and quiet, just as I like it. We are having leftovers tonight so I don’t have to cook. Hooray! I’m also going to ask for dinner out on Thursday. There’s Blue Jackets hockey on TV tonight to watch. So I’m occupied.

So in sum, today is better than yesterday. Hopefully we can build on this. Easy does it. That’s my mantra of the moment. Adios for now.