Rehab

Tough day for me yesterday. I felt sluggish and my tummy was a little upset. But this morning at 4:00 a.m. I am feeling better and I think as my body adjusts to the Latuda things will improve markedly.

My weight is slowly starting to decrease. I'm so, so happy about this. I've dropped in a pants size and I walked the dog yesterday and had no back pain. I was dazed, however, for much of the day and cleaning the kitchen is difficult. This is strange and frustrating for me because I love to cook, but can only do so in a clean kitchen.

I'm struggling with taking showers and brushing my teeth, although I do get out of bed every morning. I don't feel depressed even though I am exhibiting signs of depression. I am resolved that I am going to take a shower today. No matter how hard that may be.

I found a Bipolar group on Facebook called "Bipolar Sanctuary" and there are wonderful people there. I am looking forward to making new "friends." I like Facebook and use it quite a bit.

My husband and I talked about going to see a hockey game tonight but we are going to stay home and watch it here. I'm not ready for big crowds -- it's too soon and I've only been out of the hospital for less than a week. There's a football game on Saturday and we had tickets for that but again, we are going to watch it on television with my Mother. I know the day will come when I can go to these events. I just need to wait until I am feeling better.

I don't have anything planned for today. I guess this is a good thing. Yesterday I ended up taking a long, three hour nap during the day and that's a possibility for me today. All in all, this "rehab" is going along as planned. I have my loving husband and family circled around me and I'm so, so lucky. So bring on the day. One step at a time I am getting stronger. I won't let my illness get the best of me. I'm a fighter. Always have been. Always will be.