Beautiful Day

Well rise and shine, dear reader(s), it’s a beautiful day outside, warm temperatures have come our way! Spring has definitely sprung, time to locate lighter attire, time to finally shave my legs after months of wintertime neglect. I’m meeting sponsor Shawn at Starbucks today at noon, and hope to discuss all the trouble I’ve had with Covid Anxiety, perhaps see if he knows of any AA tools I might use to manage these anxious outbursts. This morning I don’t feel anxious per say, just nervous (if that makes sense) and kinda tense. So I took some extra Gabapentin which has now kicked in and I’m feeling better.

I’m definitely wanting to get some Spring flowers for our garden, but it’s a little too early for that. So maybe I’ll re-spray paint our wicker chair that needs it, and spray paint two black urns that are showing signs of chipping. I’m digging deep to push through the dulling effects of the Risperdal to get these projects done. It’s hard, but I’m not one to give up in the face of adversity. Having disabilities caused by medication is so, so frustrating to deal with, especially when Spring comes around and cleaning is on your mind. But Michael can help, so I’m not dealing with this all alone.

I’m thinking that perhaps my nervousness this morning is that I’m getting out and meeting someone in public after 14 days of relative isolation during Covid. I mean three years ago the media subjected us to such horrendous Covid fear factor, with death toll numbers every day, frightening images of people in hospitals, dead bodies in trucks, I mean, what the hell! It’s no wonder my nervousness is flaring. Good Lord, I’m just trying to cope, get a grip, be normal (whatever that is). My, how sensitive I am, how impressionable I am, yes, I’m keeping the news at arms length nowadays.

Short entry for today, there’s much to do, people to see, dog to be walked, weather to enjoy. Keep your sunny side up! Happy cleaning all.