Improvement

Well, the Seroquel has served to further cement my "medicine helmet" to my head. I'm really slowing down, which of course is a good thing. Slept a good deal of the day yesterday --I really needed the sleep. Some bursts of paranoia are breaking through, which I am attributing to PTSD. We are adding in more Seroquel and that helps.

Had that tussle with Michael over the car, but perhaps it remains a good idea that I do not drive right now. Do I really need to anyway? I'm sorta scared to leave the house right now, so it may just be that being car-less is a good idea.

The house cleaner is coming today. I am going to try and tidy up before she comes, but\ I don't have much energy. I am hoping to ask her to do some laundry for me. I really need some clean clothes to wear. They are just piled up in the bedroom and it drives me nuts. I can't tell what's clean and what's dirty. So I am thinking we just wash it all.

Michael will have his own list of what should be done. I have mine. I don't want to overwhelm Denise so I will prioritize for her what would help the most. I will most likely need her to come back again -- maybe set up a schedule where she comes once every 2 weeks? Not sure.

This reminds me that I need to pick up my rug at Martin's and schedule a time for them to come clean the couch Legs sleeps on and to do the stairs. So much work needs to be done. I'm so grateful Michael is not fighting me on this. It makes me feel stronger and actually makes me want to cook for him again.

It's really strange/interesting that as we get help cleaning up this home and making it beautiful, I start feeling better. I know Michael wants to be uber-frugal, but he's too tight and it keeps me sick. He also continues to harbor the notion that I/we can do all this myself/ourselves, and it's time to face reality: we can't/won't. Things have to change. It's really important.

IMPORTANT PHONE NUMBERS FOR MICHAEL TO CALL TODAY

Mike, General Contractor (work on the house) (614) 946-6139

Eddie, works for Mike (614) 515-8262