Sunshine On My Shoulders

Okay. I awoke this morning feeling really good. The plan is to go to my Mother's house for a visit and a swim in the pool, then we will go out to dinner with husband. I need more days like this. I've spent  a lot of time wandering around my home and neighborhood in a daze. I can't wait to get into the water.

The sun will be out today and it's going to be hot. Yes, I need sunscreen and no, I probably won't use any. I'm so feisty and resistant sometimes...I do plan on sitting at a table under an umbrella. That should help a bit. I feel very self-conscious in a bathing suit. If you were carting around an extra 50+ lbs. I'd wager you would be too. But I'm not going to let that stop me from enjoying the water.

Feeling much clearer today. Yesterday I slept until 1:30 p.m. and was groggy all day. I was up this morning at 6:30 a.m. and this is so much better. I am looking forward to the day. I just sense this is going to be a good one, hopefully including laughter versus such seriousness.

I believe I may have mentioned before that I think laughter can be the best medicine for me. I have had moments when I have laughed at past manias, though I will add the caveat that this doesn't happen often. Having that scary psychosis attached makes things very unpleasant. But there is some humor there. Sometimes.

As I pull out of this mania, two things are coming into focus: my body weight and my job. I have no idea how I am going to shed these pounds and I don't know what will be awaiting me at my workplace. But I'm just going to follow my mindfulness techniques and stay in the "now." Certainly I've been at this juncture before. And the "now" means today, and I have some fun things planned.

I hope you have a good day as well. Make the most of the little things. They can be more significant than you think!